the penultimate post!

Success! Tasty lemony burger. Although I maybe burned the garlic and rosemary, and the cheese didn't quite melt, but it was good!

Success! Tasty lemony burger. Although I maybe burned the garlic and rosemary, and the cheese didn’t quite melt, but it was good!

So far I’m sold on the whole Blue Apron thing. I quite enjoyed putting the meal together. It’s so nice, all the portions are already figured out, you just have to wash, chop and cook.

prep done!

prep done!

A bit too much olive oil, and probably too hot. When I added the rosemary is sort of sprayed and spattered and crackled all over the place. Quite exciting. :)

A bit too much olive oil, and probably too hot. When I added the rosemary is sort of sprayed and spattered and crackled all over the place. Quite exciting. :) And that’s cheese on top, not pineapple or some other something that’s yellow.

So…penultimate. What’s that all about? Yeah, I’ve been thinking about this off and on since Thursday. I think I’m done with the blog for now. I’ll do a final write-up tomorrow, but I think it’s time to move on. It’s been awesome. I’m so glad I did it. It’s been a wacky year of ups and downs and the blog has been great to keep me on track and accountable. I doubt I would have gotten to this point without it. The support from you guys reading has been so appreciated and helpful. Thank you so much!

Monday is my next appointment with Tiffany. Even after one session, I can tell this is a new chapter in my life. Based on what we talked about, she is thinking I most likely have a binge eating disorder. I’ve been reading about that the past few days and wow, it is such a huge relief. It wasn’t easy to admit it, but once I kind of caved and realized I fit a lot of the items on her list, it puts this past year into perspective. It’s nice to know why it’s been so hard and why I’ve kept failing. It doesn’t mean moving forward is going to be any easier, but I’m feeling much more hopeful I can make some changes.

Moving forward will be more about figuring out the why’s behind what I do what I do rather than just trying to diet and fix the surface issues. And that’s why I think it’s time to wrap up the blog. There’s not going to be much going on beyond a lot of introspection and self-talk and um…yeah…I’d rather not do that on the big world wide web. :-) Although I’d be more than happy to talk about it with anyone in Meat Space (I love that phrase! haha!) I don’t want it to be a secret or anything that I’m working on all these issues. But I don’t want the pressure of trying to come up with something to post every day, much less share some pretty personal stuff all super public-style.

That’s where it’s at. Ever onward and upward! I’m feeling nervous and excited for a whole grand new chapter of me! :-)

5 comments on “the penultimate post!

  1. Meat Space! That sounds so gross, and yet hilarious!
    I’m going to miss my daily dose of Maryn, but… I’m so happy for your next chapter! Mega kudos for all the work you’ve done!

  2. Maryn! You are seriously so amazing! I have loved reading your posts and just getting to hear your “voice” every day – helped me make this transition to not working, since I still miss seeing you and our other IL friends regularly. I’m still cheering for you, even if not in the blogosphere. :) hugs and hip hip hoorays for your hard work and dedication and upcoming adventures. love you, my friend!
    PS. let’s get the group together after Thanksgiving week!

    • Thanks Shar! And thanks for all your wonderful support and encouragement, and even a few sessions at the gym! :) Definitely need to get together after the holiday! I miss chatting with you. See you soon!

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